Ever feel like a body walking around meeting people but you know you wont fit in because they will just eventually tell you that you’re too much? Too different? That your interest is just too different from what they are used to? After spending many years trying to fit in, I finally accepted that it’s okay to be different. I realized that’s about time that I just be myself and stand out. Side note, I’m also talking to you. Be yourself and stand out. After years of negative self-talk and thinking about suicide, I ended up doing 2 things that I would say saved my life: dancing and lifting.
I started dancing in 2012. Well, let me go further back than that. I was a freshman in college. I was depressed. My anxiety was super high. In my health class, I was required to do extra curricular. Bummer right? Well, one of things on the approved extra curricular list was salsa dancing. Being the socially awkward person that I was, I was thinking why not?! So I went to my first salsa lesson. It was an AMAZING experience! I went periodically for 4 years. After college, I came across 2 guys who were teaching a salsa class in the new city I was in. And the rest was history. I was hooked. Because of salsa, I learned to appreciate socializing and that standing out was a cool thing. It got you more dances. I also learned that if you wanted to do something, there was always someone who knew more than you that could educate you. Finding knowledgeable people means finding those who know more than you so that you can better yourself.
I wish I could say I fell in love with fitness the way that I fell in love with dance, but I would definitely be lying. My mom kept me into sports since I was 2 years old. So yea I was active, however, I ate like complete crap. I spent many years thinking that my fried food diet and mediocre fit lifestyle was fantastic. While I wanted to go to an art school, my mom wanted me to become a doctor. So I chose a major in the exercise science department. During the 4 years, I started to see how people could fall in love with the lifestyle. However, I just wasn’t there yet. It wasn’t until I had graduated college and started working at my first big box gym. Seeing the meatheads overhead pressing weights twice their size got me thinking: can I do that? Once I tried, I knew that picking heavy weights up and putting heavy weights down was going to be good for me. Now, we aren’t including when I got injured really bad and had to quit lifting heavy for almost 2 years. Even though I couldn’t, I thought about weight training every day. During the time that I couldn’t bare too much weight, I got yoga, I ran in many mud runs, and I focused on muscular balance. I, then, even took time away from the fitness industry. i wanted to get back into gaming. Playing video games always kept me happy. Finally spending time reading all of the books on my list gave me a sense of purpose (or just me getting to a list years in the making). But the industry didn’t stay away from me. Once I came back, I knew that I needed to do something with it. So now here we are. I’m over hating my “different” personality. If I want to contribute to making the world a better place, it must start with me first. So for it to start with me first, I must learn to be love and be myself. Now that I have, it’s time to conquer the world. Just kidding, it’s just time to create the community I always wished I had.
This is where you lovely people come in. With misfits, when tend not to find the right communities for us. We just want a community that gives us the freedom of expression. Let’s create that community of acceptance. Lets create a safe haven. Lets continue to work together to create a world that includes us.